Monday, March 1, 2010

A Mother's Plea....

Dear Baby I,
You know how much I love you right? You are by far the greatest thing that has ever happened to Daddy and Me. We would do anything for you walk burning coals, eat snails- even jump in front of a moving train! You are the apple of our eye and we built our futures and family around you. You are our precious little angel, but....
Well....BUT (its a big but!)... I was just kind of wondering as your devoted mother and caregiver, if it were at all possible if for JUST ONE NIGHT you can cut us some slack and SLEEP!!!! I am not even asking you to sleep the WHOLE night...just give us a solid 3 or 4 hours and I will be fine! I beg you! PLEASE!!!! Before Mommy throws herself in front of a moving train!!!
I cannot wait for the day when you can tell us what is wrong! 'Mommy my belly hurts.' 'Mommy my teeth hurt.' 'Mommy the sheets are scratchy.' 'Mommy its too hot in here!' 'Mommy hold me, I am scared.' 'Mommy the dog wont stop licking itself!' Because right now I spend every waking minute of the night (which is every minute of the night!)  trying to guess what it is and I am doing a horrible job at it! I have taken the advice. I have read the books, studied the internet, swaddled you, fed you, rocked you, let you cry....nothing seems to work! Maybe I am just a wuss for a mom but I really thought by 6 months old you would have a longer stretch of sleep than 2 hours under your diapee!
In the past 3 nights you averaged MAYBE 3 hours of sleep per night...and that is being generous! Saturday night you actually started crying at 11pm and by 4:30AM we were driving the street of Las Vegas trying to get you to sleep(which is blog-worthy itself!)! I put 25 miles on the car (which is a lease that i will be paying dearly for in mile overage fees - that is coming out of your allowance!!!) for you to sleep 20 minutes and awake as soon as I turned the engine off!! You cried so loud and long last night that the dogs even scratched at the door to get out of the room!!!
Honestly Baby I feel like I am failing you in some way - like there is something I have done or something I have failed to do that makes you this uncontrollable at night. Did I hold you too much? Have I completely spoiled you silly by 6 months? I wish I knew the answer! I just know that complaining about it doesnt help and by now I think everyone must think I the wimpiest mom on the planet! But if Dr Moss's office were open at 3 AM  I would have gone in for an emergency Hysterectomy last night!!
'They' say I am supposed to let you cry - but last night was the longest 4 and a half hours of crying I have ever experienced!! And it wasnt just you crying either! I woke up so dehydrated this morning I felt like a camel!! Last nite was pure hell and I dont think I am strong enough to do it again. I dont agree with the Ferber method and I dont think that putting you to bed should be something you - and I dread....so what to do??
You have to help me out here kiddo! Mommy is running out of ideas and in desperate need of some sleep! You have me completely defeated....I just count down the hours till bedtime with complete and dreadful anticipation....and I really just want us both to get a good nights sleep!

Love,
your ever-tired, ever-loving Mommy

PS Happy happy bday to daddy! We had a great day in the snow and cant wait to do it again!!! Altho I think the doggies had the best time of all!! We love you Daddy!!!

5 comments:

  1. Awww, I'm sorry it's still so hard sweetheart. Ugh. But I do know it is not something you guys have failed to do - you've done everything you can think of, and everything all the experts can think of. Ugh.

    I wish I had a clue what to tell ya. But you're a great mommy, I can tell you that.

    My vote would be for the dog ball licking. I hate that too. :)

    Love you hon, thinking of you. And Happy Birthday Jason!

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  2. WOW i WISH i COULD BLINK & BE THERE TO HELP YOU. yOU ARE NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG . YOU CANNOT POSSIBLY SPOIL HIM TO THIS EXTEND EVEN SPOILED KIDS SLEEP. wHEN YOU GO TO THE DR. DONT TAKE ALL BABIES CRY AS AN ANSWER DONT THROW IN THE TOWEL YOU ARE DOING ABOVE & BEYOND WHAT IS EXPECTED. HANG IN THERE SLEEP WHEN YOU CAN ANY TIME OF THE DAY . GET OUT GO TO THE GYM OR A RIDE BY YOURSEL DO IT LOV YA

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  3. Doctors suck! They dont listen! They cut you off!
    And patronize you! Its all about the copay! I bet if you didnt have a balance at the docs office then he would sleep!!!! ps...nice spelling of hysterectomy!...love Dr. Phil...Where Oprah?

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  4. FYI: I just read this in some journal. Excessive baby crying is soothed and comforted by cleaning kitchen counters and mopping floors. Also...running vacuum cleaner greatly reduces the awareness of high pitched crying!...Whatta ya think!? ...love, Johnny Fabulouso

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  5. dear johnny fabulouso you are right - drs do suck...all they care about is getting in to the drug reps panties...or manties....
    i will try the cleaning theroy - it sounds promising...you do it compulsively and look how happy you are!

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