You know how much I love you right? You are by far the greatest thing that has ever happened to Daddy and Me. We would do anything for you walk burning coals, eat snails- even jump in front of a moving train! You are the apple of our eye and we built our futures and family around you. You are our precious little angel, but....
Well....BUT (its a big but!)... I was just kind of wondering as your devoted mother and caregiver, if it were at all possible if for JUST ONE NIGHT you can cut us some slack and SLEEP!!!! I am not even asking you to sleep the WHOLE night...just give us a solid 3 or 4 hours and I will be fine! I beg you! PLEASE!!!! Before Mommy throws herself in front of a moving train!!!
I cannot wait for the day when you can tell us what is wrong! 'Mommy my belly hurts.' 'Mommy my teeth hurt.' 'Mommy the sheets are scratchy.' 'Mommy its too hot in here!' 'Mommy hold me, I am scared.' 'Mommy the dog wont stop licking itself!' Because right now I spend every waking minute of the night (which is every minute of the night!) trying to guess what it is and I am doing a horrible job at it! I have taken the advice. I have read the books, studied the internet, swaddled you, fed you, rocked you, let you cry....nothing seems to work! Maybe I am just a wuss for a mom but I really thought by 6 months old you would have a longer stretch of sleep than 2 hours under your diapee!
Honestly Baby I feel like I am failing you in some way - like there is something I have done or something I have failed to do that makes you this uncontrollable at night. Did I hold you too much? Have I completely spoiled you silly by 6 months? I wish I knew the answer! I just know that complaining about it doesnt help and by now I think everyone must think I the wimpiest mom on the planet! But if Dr Moss's office were open at 3 AM I would have gone in for an emergency Hysterectomy last night!!
'They' say I am supposed to let you cry - but last night was the longest 4 and a half hours of crying I have ever experienced!! And it wasnt just you crying either! I woke up so dehydrated this morning I felt like a camel!! Last nite was pure hell and I dont think I am strong enough to do it again. I dont agree with the Ferber method and I dont think that putting you to bed should be something you - and I dread....so what to do??
You have to help me out here kiddo! Mommy is running out of ideas and in desperate need of some sleep! You have me completely defeated....I just count down the hours till bedtime with complete and dreadful anticipation....and I really just want us both to get a good nights sleep!